Breathe this one in.

“Chronicles of a lost creator”. A tale of pain, hardship, healing and love.

Love.

Currently one of my favorite words, some years ago that same word would cause my insides to churn and my face to make the ick. It was impossible for me express it or even recognize it in others. Yet something happened over the last few years that just like the grinch, I slowly started to see the power of it in myself and in the world.

My name is AP4CHE, you might know me as the man who recently appeared on Colyn’s Instagram post. It was actually the first time in my life I had witness someone refer to me as “a man” lol. I understand now, that when you start hitting the gym and your testosterone levels shoot themselves up to the roof, people will see your hairy face and muscular tone and understandably call you a grown man. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t identify as anything other than a man, you can call yourself non-binary, trans, they/them or whatever you like I honestly don’t give a fuck as long as your cool yourself and with others. What I mean is that I’ve always considered myself as just a regular human being. In this human being state there are not boundaries, no borders, we’re all equal. We’re all born with potential and we all grow up with trauma and pain. As children we start to learn how to play by the rules of life, and the older we get we learn to break those rules…